no more slacking!!!!!!!!

dont worry my friends.
get ready.

the long awaited update!

i know i know i know. i haven't posted in ages. my apologies. my life has been one big crazy mess. juggling school and life and school and life. crazy.

school is going alright. not making a lot of progress nowadays. i feel like my class has plateaued and im just waiting for the day that they teach me something new. i do admit that i have somewhat of a bad attitude when it comes to school nowadays and its because i feel like im not learning anything anymore.

other then that ive been amazing. minus a few setbacks.

dont worry! more to come!
xoxoxox!

missing in action!

hello friends!
im back!
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the diary of over-spenders.

the suspects.


in case you didnt know, Demitri and I are always broke. well, not always, but most of the time. why you ask? well, its because demitri and i spend our money on useless crap! everytime we come across some money we want to spend spend spend. both him and i DO NOT know how to save a cent, thats prolly why we are great friends, because we can go to walmart together and spend a shitload of money and not feel bad about it until 3 days after when we dont have any money and have to scrounge for change to take to coinstar to buy a pack of smokes. im only 23 and i already have bad credit and my bank accounts are always over-drafted. i havent had a bank account for the past 4 months and today i just went to the bank to re-open my account, and my goal is to not over-draft it EVER AGAIN! and to keep the devil debit card at home when i go out.
i just did my taxes today and im getting back a good amount of money, and of course my first reaction when i saw how much i was getting back was "HOLY POOP IM BUYING AN IPHONE!" and of course i got really excited about it and didnt think that an iphone is 400 skrills and that would cut the amount of money im getting back in half, then i thought about it, and thought about it some more, then i was thinking that maybe i should hold off on buying an iphone until i have a job. and as you all know since im going to school full-time and i dont have a job, my wallet is pretty much running empty. so hopefully, when i get my return directly deposited into my bank account in 2 days i wont get really excited and go straight to the apple store and buy and iphone. eeeeven though an iphone would make my life a whole lot easier, with all the scheduling i need to do, all the things i need to update and yadda yadda yadda. lets see if i can hold out. keep your fingers crossed for me.
so, demitri and i talked today and we have decided to make a pact on not buying anything big for the next 2 weeks. we need to stay strong! he already has the itch and im getting the itch and i dont even have the money yet!
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there arent enough hours in the day.

i just want to keep on going.

learning to live without money.

im not used to being broke. but for the past year ive been nothing but, not only broke, shit broke. im surprised ive even gone this far. and im stoked on having to deal with it. its really made me look at things a lot different. i usually buy a whole bunch of shit i would never need or use (ok, so i still do that every now and then hahah) and i just end up with a messy room with a while bunch of crap i dont need. but now i try and only get the shit i need with the money i have. as long as laughing all the time, i dont need a dime. what im getting at is, i wasnt able to get that loan. which is a good thing in the end, even though i do need the money, i know for a fact it is better that i dont have it. im working on getting 2 jobs as well, and if i have to go to school part time for a few months thats fine. ill be ok. i have great friends and a life full of laughter and thats all ill ever need.
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take it one day at a time.

school is a lot better this week. im think im starting to get the hang of things...knock on wood. im still somewhat stressing about it though, but mainly because of the fact that my cash flow is non-existent. i talked to my director yesterday about possibly taking out a loan for personal and school expenses but they only do that when you take out a loan for tuition and then they link it up with that, so since i payed for my tuition myself and did not take out a loan i wont be able to get any kind of living expense loan, which sucks. but my director is going to try and hook me up with a part-time reception job at one of the paul brown salons and im going to apply at the rred elephant cafe.

so going to school full time and 2 part time jobs? lets hope my head doesnt fall off!